Forgetting Your Ex's

Relationship are integral part of our life, most of the people at least experiencing it, and most of them also experiencing a high tide in relationship, and often ended with breakup. After that usually we will facing a phase when we need to put the past and move on by trying to put an end our past comfort that we used to have it, and starting to back in reality of single life. Often, we're having trouble on how we able to move on, or don't have a clue how to start.

I've my own experience with this kind of matters, I'm not saying that mine is good, but at least can give you a different perspective when dealing with this matters. Some people find it weird but at least I can try to explained with reasons, to make it more make sense. Than you can decide.

Friends - Part 1

They are maybe the most influence-able people after your parent when you starting to grow up. The most powerful in shaping your decision, attitude, even your believe. There are so many different kind of friends in this world, some trusted, some wholehearted, some other tricky, some other only "friends with benefit", so many kinds and so many different intentions...I'm not going to talk about the plus/minus point of having a friends or determining which one is most faithful and useful to become your trusted friends, because there's no such formula to determine that and there's too many chain mail about friendship that I'm sure you already read about it some. But at least I like to talk about the reality of being friends/friendly, or maybe in general being social creatures. Maybe I like to share some of my experience with friends (of course no subject/name to be mention for the sake of privacy) and some conclusions that I've made about friends. Of course this is only representing my views not the worlds class scientific views, but at least I tried to be neutral and give the best balance as I can.

So here's some point that I like to highlight...

Friends - Part 2

It's late, but the cold of the night keeps me awake, suddenly my mind flashes back. Some new status in the facebook popping out in this cold friday nite, and it just knocked my head, really hard. Once again I realizing, how things are changing, nothings last forever. Specially human. And not one of us able to prevent it. What we have is only, a good old memories...

The status update is...more or less about friendship.

Once I felt it so close and almost like brotherhood, but now I don't even knew whether I remembered as part of it or not. I don't know is it because of me or just them, that make this not working as it used to be. I've done my part to fix it (at least according to my understanding, and I'm sure it's more that obvious for them to notice my actions). I've seen some of them also trying the same, even thou not all. But I don't know, is it a sincere or just bull crap to make conversation, it's just not working as used to be anymore...is it only some bullshit crap talk that they do to me? I truly don't know, but I believe my desire are sincere. I realize the needs of making friends, that's why I've tried to keep it wholeheartedly. But to bad I can't read their thought, is it the same like me or not.

I realize, ego is playing the biggest part on each of us, that's why I've tried to make it up first, I believe I've lowered my ego more than needed but still no respond. I think I just have to accept the reality of life, that friends come and go, sometimes when our interest are the same, then we can be like great friends. But when the interest are shifted/changing/not the same anymore, than we just...a friend, period. No matter how many contributions or sacrifices that you already done in the past to keep the friendship strong, when the interest are shifted...It makes no different.

One thing that keep me amaze, seem the taoism principal about yin and yang are working perfectly, balancing our life between yin and yang. When one of your side losses something, our subconscious seem forcing us to fill in the gap with other things, until its find the balances. That's really amaze me, how I can willingly to find a new friends without any comments, and its flowing pretty much not like when I've friends, seem like getting boost from our own subconscious. Yes, I've a new group of friends now, and it was fun, its different but still enjoyable. But I still waiting to be accepted as used to be and in any other groups also. Because I treasure friendship. A lot.

so this bring us to part 2 about friendship...

Ibu

Hari ini...ya hari ini, sebuah tamparan keras baru saja kuterima. Akan lebih mudah kuterima kalau itu sebuah tamparan yang memerahkan pipi dan menyakitkan kulit wajahku. Sungguh sakit harus kuterima namun bukanlah di kulit, melainkan di hati. Tetap lebih mudah apabila itu hanya dari seorang yang kau anggap pasangan yang akan menemani hidupmu selamanya. Namun bukan...

Hari ini, tiba-tiba saja hilang rasa ku untuk menikmati indahnya melepas minggu. Seperti pada biasanya aku menikmati meninggalkan rutinitas hidup, sekedar untuk berpaling dari realita dan menikmati asyiknya masa muda. Rasanya ingin aku melupakan permasalahan ini dan kembali bercanda dengan teman teman, seperti pada biasanya aku melepas permasalahan yang terjadi dalam rutinitas hidup. Namun kembali rasa muak muncul dan aku kembali memikirkannya. Ini bukan seperti biasanya...

Tidak seperti biasanya, aku yang selalu mempunyai formula atau nasihat buat permasalahan yang ku hadapai, atau bahkan permasalahan² mereka yang mau menceritakannya padaku. Tidak jarang aku merasa permasalahan mereka akan mudah terselesaikan oleh nasihat ku. Tapi tidak untuk yang ini...aku sungguh bingung.

The New Start - Singapore - Part 2

Nice, very nice experiences here in Singapore, some of my friends greets me, then she's continue asking "And...How About You?". At first...I'm just stand and look down, nothing came up from my mouth, again I tried to throw a simple jokes just to diverting the conversations, but my mouth felt so stiff. I replied "Still alive and trying to kick'n" .

Maybe I'll try to evaluate it here...

The New Start - Singapore - Part 1

It's been a while since I left Jakarta, and I don't know why, I feel like going to write somethings. I always felt like "Lonely In The Crowds" and have no idea what I'm suppose to write. But not this night, somethings in my mind (which I don't know what it is) and my finger to start typing. Its not an overnight writings.

It's start when I still working in a small multinational company in Kuningan, Jakarta. Actually the main branch of this company is in Singapore, I think they established a new branch in Jakarta, and the good thing is that the pay is good since they're newcomers, so I just toke it . At the first time I'm quite relief that Jakarta still have a good multinational company beside my previous company, but after one of my senior colleague explains to me regarding their PM (yes Mr ). I'm starting become a rebellions. I don't care if I shouting or degrade him anymore. At that time I'm realize that maybe I need a break, not just a break but also a breakthrough. I must make changes, not only changes for that company, also changes in me. In that balcony in front of my room...I keep thinking, how to make myself happy? what should I do next? where I'm heading at right now?

I see some of my colleagues starting to looking a job in Singapore when Mr not checking on us, and I don't know why at that time probably because I already feed up with Mr , suddenly I really serious to look for a job in Singapore, after a few attempt and CV tweaks, also 2 weekend going to Singapore (I mean on the weekend twice), a new beginning starting to rise . I got some offer from some multinational company, also the biggest IT company in Singapore....yeahh . And *poof* here I am in the City of Lion Singapore since april.

Surely I really appreciate to all my friends in my previous company, you guys always supporting me and helping me, even thou I only less that 6 months there, but I'll never forget your guys, all the best !.

So...Singapore ! and this is my stories...........


The Place

The first 2 months after I landed in Singapore with one one-way plane ticket. I feel like "Yes...this is my new start, new energy, new excitement, my new me". I stay in a condo, sharing a room with my friend's friend, at first its quite ok, still feel a bit awkward but hey...we're guys so "ChueX iS dA bESt !" . And also after we move in, we have a housemate a sister and brother. When I see her at the first time, I feel like "Hmm, she's cute...maybe we can hang out together sometimes"...yeah..yeah...I know u people will think that I'm lame using that word, but honest...that's the only thing that comes in mind that times. And the landlord...yes they're nice too, I also got another new housemate placing the 3rd room recently, quite nice guys indeed.

FYI...the room is nothing more than my bathroom in my room back in Jakarta, and still I need to share it with my roommate. A bit difficult for me since I always have my own private room and bathroom and now I need to share it, a little fractions starting to come out...especially after I got my new lappie and some gadgets. Hmm I realize that maybe I just can't stay like that, I'm not use to share with other people, not that I won't, but I just not used to. Now I already move to another place, just 1 MRT away from that condo. Here I stay in HDB just with the landlord, a small family with a very cute little girl, here I have my own room also I can say my own bathroom even its not attached to my room, but better than the last one. Even thou I need to pay more but I feel more comfortable because I have my own privacy again, I just hope that the landlord also feel the same like me.

To my roommate, thanks for your kindness to accept me, maybe I'm a bit inconsiderate with you last time. I hope you can accept it as I can accept you also. And to my housemate...to bad I don't have enough guts to make friends with you . I remember first time we're a starting to talking each other (I mean really talk not just to say hi) is when you just got back from your very very long vacation and by the time I decided to move from that place....I think it's almost 5 months, Anyway, thanks for your kindness, I really appreciate it. You inviting me to your BBQ party and meet with your friends, adding ring tones in your IPhone, also I'll never forget your corn soup (damn...its good you know ). To bad you decided to go back to Indonesia for good, I hope we have time to have dinner together again next time (hahaha....dunno whether you're able/willing/want to do it again together ). Hope you still keeping my lousy notebook cooler, that 's the only token I dare to give it to you . Wish you all the best and hope we still be in touch in the future.

The Office

It's so called the biggest IT company in Singapore, owned by the government's telecommunication company in Singapore. I do support for multinational bank, which is one of the biggest banking company in the world and it is the largest bank in the United States by holdings. At first I thought this is a step ahead after my previous company, I'm so excited, yet I still remember some of friends say...Even company like Microsoft, deep inside in their internal also messy. So I just cross my finger for that, what I knew just...I got better salary. For me no matter what I do, I just want to see Mr Yusof bin Ishak smiling .

First day, It's like orientations day, I get a one day tour inside the company, get introduced to my PM (even thou just a temporary PM). My impression at that time is this company is well organized, even I get a small things like pen, paperclip, note book, etc which I never see this kind of courtesy before, and this is the first time I get my own table with a name tag

First 3 months, I do nothing (literally). Yes I just browsing the internal website, seeing how well organized the company, like how they organize the leave, how to make claims, they have an updated list of clinic I can go if I'm sick, even they have a page for our temperature check (ow..they also give us free temperature meter ). Some say first month is the honeymoon, but I got 3 month of honeymoon . The next month I just realize that I'm a part of transitions, means I'm going to handle a system that used to managed by other 3rd party, and now will be managed by us, so I do a lot of documentations. Again at first I see the documents templates and it was like "WOW", I never see how well organized the document templates is, it has the field that we should fill in when we go to the incumbent, complete with the description and example if we don't have any idea what field is that. Even before we go to the incumbent, we all get briefed the big plan, the schedules, and the big picture of the transitions what it would be like. FYI total of the documents we need to fill is around 34 excel and 6 documents, each excel contains at least 20 sheets and every sheet is has columns at least 15 columns, and the document it self...only for template is already over than 2 MB. Very impressive indeed...but still, in theory might ok, when it comes to the executions??? I realize and finally understand what my friend told me about reality of working in IT company, and I think it's even worst than what my friend says

Now the schedules getting tighter, and now I get clearer pictures about work in Singapore (maybe to naive I say like that, but it is the reality). I see how they just trying to save their own ass, I see a boss that always waiting until you do a mistakes, and when you do that he'll start scold you and take advantage for it, I see how the weak getting crushed by the stronger, I see people that don't have any self confidence getting bullied. They always say team work but in the end it's just a cover so they have scape goat, or at least they can go home early and stranded you in their work until over time. This is just some of my experiences, there are others that I heard from colleagues. I need to constantly thinking, is he up to something, is he doing this in a good cause or just setup?. Here I work with multi races, different culture, different background...It's very hard to tell unless you willing to be scape goat . Pointing finger is a common things here, even lying (in a very cheap way) consider a good way to get rid your problems.

Too bad, now the templates is filled with a lot of junks (useless information) and far from what the documents intended to be, and who's to be blame? yes the bottoms level of the structures will get all the scolds, overtime to remake the docs, and finish it on schedules. No matter how right/good are you, they can kick you out just like piece of junk. Even sometimes you must clean out all the mess that even not created by you

What I miss a lot is when I work in Jakarta? yes the long working hour is still the same, all the things I said above I also felt it in previous company, but back there...still more easier to find friends, at least someone who still want to support us, even only by accompanying you till you finish by doing nothing. I can feel the sincerity, the friendships. But not here...

The Peoples

I still remember, the 1st time I got lunch together with fellow colleagues from Indonesia that also working there, I feel very awkward...how they talk, how the joke'n around, how they think, how the response each other is very very very different with what I often do in Jakarta. I feel like "can I blend in with them??", I thought either they're to lame for me or actually the problems is in me? do I changed, do I really become that lame so I can't blend in

After a few times going out with them, I'm starting to catch up with their phase, I'm trying to understand each one of them and looking from theirs point of view. Yes is hard and boring, but I'm willing to do that since I don't have friends here. Actually what they are doing also same with me, they trying to know me, some of them (probably) just give up trying and just take the easy part as ignorant (I mean...just nice to know me), some others still trying, possibly because they also need a friends just like me, but hey...that's how it's work right? the law of supply & demand ? .

It started from every friday night out after work, we just go out dinner and after that playing games in some LAN shop around Somerset, sometimes we just sit beside the road, enjoying bean curd until 4 a.m in the morning just waiting first train to come, talking everything...a bit "crispy" but hey, better to kill the day . Now we have some problems...It seem Singapore is too small and don't have much amusements for us, we often just take dinner and back home after discussing what activities should we take to kill the time, because in the end some people want to do it, some don't and ruins our mood. I try to understand them, because we're all come from different backgrounds(to be truth, I even don't bother to ask them)...so maybe my style is different with them also. Some like nightlife, some just to into playing computer games, some think better go home and sleep , some keep trying and keep thinking what activities that can cater all . I found it pretty hard especially when its involving with , yeah its typical problem but I think we all have our ethic code and we can handle it together.

Something that for me is one of the essential part in friendship, is still missing. The ego is very high and afraid/unwilling to do a new thing in friendship, how afraid they're to show/express their own feelings it's like there's no adventurous/renegade/rebellion spirit. But I can understand, I can't push them into my mindset, having them is already a bless in disguise. So I just become as myself and respect their privacies or thought also. Thanks for accepting me as part of the bro's

The Living Cost

After about 6 months here in Singapore, much I can tell that S$1500 is more than enough for single male working class type . I'll try to break it down

1. Place to stay [300 - 900, Avg : 600]
   This is the biggest monthly expenses that you need to pay when you're working in Singapore and don't have place to crash. The cheapest way to reduce this, is by sharing a room with your friends, you can share the rent with each other but the down side is you also need to share with each other, and lack of privacy. But if you really don't mind...this can save alot.
2. Eat [300 - 600, Avg : 450]
   With S$15 you can eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner in a decent hawker and I'm sure its enough, mostly per meal is around S$5 already with drinks. If you want to save more, you can bring your own drinks (but be carefull because some place they don't allow you to do that), or order food that comes with soup. For weekend dinner/parties sure you need to pay for more, the cheapest hang out place foods is like around S$12 per meal.
3. Groceries (150 - 300, Avg : 200)
   Chocolate, tidbits, cakes, crackers, can drinks, or your personal needs like soap, shampoo, etc. This is depend on the each peoples, but from my experiences S$200 is like 2 months of supplies .
4. Hang out (~300)
   This also very subjective, depend on your lifestyles. But if it's only like going out, dinner, play games, pools, bowl, brewing, buy some gadgets, accessories, etc. I think its enough.

FYI I haven't calculate for transports, taxi, taxes, etc. But what I can say is I'm able to maintain myself with S$1500 per month. As long as you're default setting for lifestyles is not high enough. Please don't use my experiences for benchmarks, just make it as stupid lame lifestyles

So...this is the 1st part of my new start in Singapore. Feel free if you want to ask other things, see you in the 2nd part of me in Singapore

Maybe Miracle Do Exists - Happy New Year 09

There's some experiences that I think is very sensational, its start from the day before Christmas and after new year eve 09, I still feel the comfort till now. Maybe for them that have faith/religion this kind of experiences is just ordinary experiences. But for me as skepticism...I found it so weird.

It began just before Christmas...

I remember in that December, one of my friend (hmm should I say friend? since even we know each other coincidentally in stock forum and officially just meet twice or so ) just called Drey, she introduce me with this girl Tini, first I dunno how to start but dunno why, Its like a river flows and then we both become friends. We often go to see movie together or have a nice dinner and chat, sometimes we chat for 3-5 hours in YM. Its like oasis in desert that time, its the first time I want to go out after my breakup and I found that very amusing, very nice to have (girl)friends again just on the right time when I'm feeling that I have nobody in this world. When Tini decide to go back to her hometown on Chrismas eve, that time I feel alone again. So I decided to go back to my hometown too.

Still linger in my head, it's going be the worst holidays ever in my life, imagine a whole week without someone, not even a single person. So I just want to spend whole holidays in my hometown, enjoying my loneliness alone. At that time, even for checking my phone, I feel bored and useless to do that, i bet nobody still remember and want to say even just hi or happy holidays to me, so i just throw my phone and to lazy to re-charge it. I spent so many times with my cousins Asen, we play PS2, going to internet cafe, swimming, play basket, etc. I'm so damn relaxed and I feel like I'm 10 years younger, all i do just play and eat hahaha just like a .

On Christmas night, just lay low on the bench doing nothing, just staring at the night sky, feel bored and looking for some activities, trying to re-charge my phone again, and what? 12 missed call and 4 sms from my ex's (of course not the last one ). Imagine almost 15 years and she still remembering me as stubborn agnostic and wishing me a marry Christmas . We chat till morning that night, expressing how grateful I'm and thanks her for still remembering me. On the next day we see each others and talking a lot of thinks, remembering good old days...when there's nothing to worry about, and she giving me a cd full of Christians mp3 as Christmas present...hehehe yeap...she always believe that I'll repent someday. Again suddenly I don't feel bored anymore, I found someone that still remember and thinks me special.

Back to Jakarta, the joy's continue, we often go threesome . Me, Drey, and Tini. Since Drey is in "It's Complicated" with her boyfriends, we often chat and share our thought, also we go to see movie or something...you have no idea what feel that day just like sheik from Arab or something hahaha. The best part is we go karaoke and sing like a nuts. Also when Tini help me looking for a new suit to go to my ex's (yep the other one, again ) wedding, and with Drey partying around in X2 before she depart to China.

I remember that day, when I'm feel so down. My mom asking me to meet this (should I say) shaman. He say that I'm a lucky boy, so many people will help you when you need to be helped. At that time I just laughing out loud, like I care about that. But when I thinking about it again, geez....Its hard for me to accept that, also not the mention also people that always saying "God Bless You" to me everyday. My logical brain can't accept this kind of statements, but its really realized and I can feel it. So that time, yes I remember just past 2 hour after new years eve. Maybe miracle do exists, maybe there's supreme being that controls our lives, or maybe there's another life forms so called ghost or something that sometimes helps me?.

Since the questions is still no exacts answers, I'll stick with Karma (which I feel is more logical than others religions) and I just want to say :
Its a phrase in Pāli language that taken from Buddhist Mantra. he transliteration is

sa bbe sa ttā su khi ho ntu

sabbe sattā sukhi hontu

and the translation is May All Beings Be Happy!

Thanks for helping me. Happy New Year 2009

Live Streaming Indonesian TV

Just finish updating my winamp playlist...got many new songs especially song that become hits in Philippine. I hope this is my last journey to Manila, and I can back to fixing my private life.

I miss Indonesian tv channels actually, I remember back then there's site that provide a streaming channel for Indonesian channels for free. try here -> Imediabiz
Make sure you have decent broadband connections for better viewing, sit back and enjoy Indonesian (*cough*sick*cough*) Sinetron

Restart All Over Again

Sungguh tidak pernah ku sangka, sekali lagi aku harus memulai lagi dari awal. Sebuah hubungan yang sudah ku jalin hampir 4 tahun, hancur begitu saja. Awalnya yang ada dalam pikiran ku hanyalah optimisme yang tak berkesudahan, otak ku penuh dengan keyakinan, kepercayaan, dan hanya ada pikiran positif bahwa dia adalah tujuan, akhir dari perjalanan hidup ego, dan awal dari perjalanan untuk tanggung jawab, dewasa, dan berpikir masa depan. Semua nya hancur dan musnah hanya karena alasan lonely, ditambah dengan seribu satu alasan lain yg dipakai untuk membackup alasan utama.

Berawal dari sebuah dering telepon, yang ku sangka adalah pelepas penat paling segar yang akan aku terima setelah bekerja dari pagi sampai malam, dengan nada datar dimulai dengan pernyataan bosan, merasa sendiri tidak ada yg menemani kemudian muncul statement² "jeda sesaat". Sejenak otak ku seperti mobil yang sedang ngebut dipaksa untuk berhenti dan berbelok, bodohnya aku dengan mudah mengatakan untuk siap menerima apapun keputusan nya. Seorang teman baik ku memberi saran setelah ku tutup telpon, jangan terlalu mudah seperti itu...ingat berapa besar pengorbanan yang telah lo lakukan selama 4 tahun terakhir, apa mau kau buang sia-sia?

Kuterima saran teman ku sambil bersama-sama menatap ke Adelantado street, berangkat kembali naik ke apartement untuk mencoba menghubungi dia sekali lagi, meralat ucapan ku yang bodoh itu, SMS demi SMS mulai mengalir...berbagai macam alasan mulai bermunculan, walaupun menurut ku semua alasan itu klise dan bisa ku balas dengan mudah, kututup sesi SMS tersebut dengan statement yang menegaskan kembali komitmen yang sudah dibuat bersama, dimana sebuah komitmen hanya bisa berhasil apabila didukung oleh ke dua belah pihak. Hati ku berdebar keras, berharap dia sadar dan bisa mencerna dengan baik apa yang ada di otak ku walau lewat sebuah media yang terbatas sekali.

Keesokan hari, aku tidak tahan lagi dan mulai berpikir macam-macam, beberapa teman memberiku beberapa saran yang sangat baik yang pasti akan ku cam kan untuk hubungan selanjut nya...teman ku berkata "That's the nature of a woman....Awalnya meledak², kemudian selanjutnya pasti akan di menyesal, kemudian malu untuk mengakui dan diakhiri dengan mencari orang lain yang paling tidak mendekati atau lebih baik dari yg lama", teman ku yang lain bilang "Women is like a flowers, need to be watered every day". Sejenak gw terhenyak...betul selama ini aku terlena akan hal² lain karena aku terlalu yakin kalau dia sudah pasti milikku, hingga aku hanya memikirkan langkah selanjut nya saja, sehingga aku jarang menengok lagi kebelakang.

Mungkin sudah terlambat, tapi bukan aku bila tidak berusaha sampai akhir. Segala upaya ku lakukan agar paling tidak, permasalahan ini dapat diselesaikan secara baik-baik, dengan kondisi sama-sama bertemu muka. Tapi apa daya sepertinya keputusan sudah dikeraskan seperti hati nya. Aku harus terima dengan lapang dada, realita bukanlah sesuatu yang harus di sangkal...tapi harus dihadapi. Pintu sudah tertutup, saatnya untuk melangkah, kembali ke garis awal dan mulai menapak kembali dari awal.

Aku sudah melakukan kesalahan yang sama DUA kali. Hal yang sama menimpa hubungan ku dengan alur yang sama juga, bahkan penyelesaian yang di pakai juga sama. Apakah aku tidak belajar? semoga tulisan ini bisa membantu diriku agar selalu ingat dan tidak jatuh lagi untuk yang ke tiga kali nya.

Hati kecil ku ingin tuk kembali...tapi itu bagaikan membelah bulan.

Stop Dreaming...Patch Your Heart & Reboot !

Manila Chapter 2

After spending 2 months in Manila and 7 days in Jakarta, here i'm back to Manila...actually i'm already here since 10th april, so I already spent almost 3 weeks. My project manager decide to start the report testing soo I'm soo busy lately, even I have no time for updating my MetaStock since I always back to my apartment late around 10 or 11 PM and I just to tired to open my laptop, usually just straight to bed and wake up in the morning to start it all over again...pheww what kind a life is this . There's some pictures that I like to share about it, hmm...lets start from my flight.

Yeah...this is some pictures I take while in plane, its so bored since I sitting alone, I remember all I do just sleeping during the flight.

Also here's the food in the plane pic. Almost all of my friends said that the foods in Manila is suck, so almost everyday they only eat at ChowKing or KCF/McD or Jolibee, and they never what to try the other restaurants coz they always said that they never want to spending money just for eating garbage taste like foods. Even one of our bosses almost everyday eating the same menu in the same restaurant for almost a year . For me that's dumb, come on what do you expect?? you not living in Indonesia, so dont try to looking foods that taste like Indonesian. Otherwise try to eat like them, try theirs traditional foods or other foods that not available in Indonesia...because this opportunity might not be came to you again . Some of them said I'm weird and crazy because i always ordering unusual foods and they even never try before...but for me, you are the weird one. This is a snack with grilled pork flavours, something that you will never ever get it in Indonesia to be sell freely

The next day me with some of my friends go to Manila Bay to catch a sunset in boat, but too bad we miss the 5 PM ferry so we just enjoying sunset in the pier, one of my friends insist to take the 6PM ferry and but the scenes not to good since its dark already. here's some photos that taken from the pier and the ferry.

On the second week, I got bad perceptions by my project manager, its a one hell of a weekend since likely all my jobs ruined just because I can't remember ONE from hundreds report functions . So this week all I do just work...work...and work! I have to restore my reputations and make sure i got no pending jobs so I can go back to Jakarta on 10 May. Gladly right now almost 80% of my jobs are already tested before the deadline . Also I get a chance to try watching movie in Manila. Its a movie starring Jackie Chan & Jet Li in the movie called "The Forbidden Kingdom", I like the movie coz its has such a deep meaning, also there's a lot of moral value in the movie just like when Jackie trying to summon rain in the dessert and Jet Li piss him off or when Jason feels he cant bear the task, and Jet Li suggest him to breathe.

Oh...I also going to TriNoma Mall in the north avenue, by taking a MRT. The fees was 14 peso and we just hang out there, one thing I notice that almost all mall has like park hall in the middle...that's good for socialize I think. We go to the dinner in the food court, since I'm a big fan of burgers I order a unique burgers...it said from Belgian and its so tiny so u can eat it in one shot

and I order 8 burgers hehehe